Something related to HIM

On 22/10/2006,
Went to Bukit Panjang plaza with mummy.
PURPOSE: to find HIS birthday present for the next day.
Walk around the plaza for an hour+, but can't find jacket( which i plan to buy a white jacket for him)that really suit him.And finally, found a stall that sell watches. Then i look around.... At last, there's a nicest one among all. After much consideration, i bought it..
COST: $32
DESCRIPTION ON THE WATCH: Digital, black rubber strap, simple design.
RESPONDS:Mummy says the cost of the present for friend is too expensive.(i didn't tell her it's for a guy i like. i lie to her that it's for a 'tom-boyish' friend). Friends also say too expensive le.
However, for me, it consider average(although i feel pain spending so much on it). Why? i've even bought a $50 jersey for him before lor...Haiz... All i can say is i'm silly, foolish and idiot. But what can i do? This is not this first time that i'm that silly. It has been 4 yrs already. so what can i do? haiz...

On 23/10/2006,
Happy Birthday to you.....
Today is his birthday. And i have not send him any of my wishes. cos' i don't have his number and i cannot go online as my com got problem.
So how?? Have to wait and see if i can meet him in school.
You Know what i do? i keep looking around the canteen while eating just to look for him. Thanks to mic helping me to look for him. But, too bad. he's not in school. According to his friend, HE went to learn bike! COOL! But at the same time feel sad. cos' i cant wish him happy birthday on the day. haiz. no choice. have to wait another day to pass him the present..

Today
Fix my com once i reach home..... And..... YEAH!!! Finally it's fixed.. So i quickly online hoping to see HIM. And indeed, my wish came true.. haha.. he's online...
so i faster go and chat with him.. (too bad our conversation is not save. haiz.. sad.. cos i can't 'keep' my 'courage'..hehe....).
While chatting with him, i feel so so so scare.. i scare that he won't reply me. but luckily, he did. And i feel so nervous that my face is so hot, my hand is so cold and my heart is thumping very hard(So drama and yet, it did happen to me!)....
i also took the daring to ask for his number in case i can't show up... and surprisingly, he did give it to me..
IN CONCLUSION,
i'm meeting him tomorrow at 11pm(he decide de) outside ELP(i decide de).
So nervous...